How would I describe myself to someone? I really tried to make it objective. 42 year old dude. A little thick around the mid-section (like a lot of middle aged guys). Light brown-blonde hair anywhere but the top of his head, where sparseness prevails. Kind blue eyes, and when he smiles, it’s a little crooked…
So fast I can’t write or type
There are times where my brain is moving so fast that I don’t think it’s possible for me to record it in any way. I certainly can’t type that fast, though it is faster than my writing. I like my handwriting, and I like my ability to change it drastically with little effort but after…
Score!
I’ve been coming here for… I’m not sure, at least six months now? I’ve never been able to score the booth in the back with the church pew for a seat. Of course as soon as I typed that my squirrel brain bounced to something else in my line of sight. Sitting at eye level…
Day 4/5
Though I did not come to the pub and write last night, I drove past the pub and ultimately decided against being out in the actively pouring rain. It felt cold and rainy and dreary, so my body does what any human would, I fall into habits, because that is what’s familiar. I ended up…
Day 3 – Wrenches
I felt so good about my plan today, relaxed and ready to sit with my drink and write. I opened the door of the pub to a lecture in progress and many eyes had turned toward me as I entered. Welp. Not writing there tonight. I tried looking at the other spot I know I…
Day 2
I’m not even thinking about it, I put my body on autopilot and left work with the intention to come directly here and start writing. I parked near the building and saddled up to the same slice of bartop. Ordered the Hot Buttered Rum (not as good tonight/different bartender) and immediately pulled out my laptop….
Day 1 (Again Probably)
I need structure and routine to function well. I need to build habits that set me up for success and will stick. So I’m trying again. I’m going to keep trying until it becomes my norm. Writing won’t happen unless you get in the habit of it. You can’t sit down and write a novel…
Patterns
Chani said this week was going to be filled with hard realizations. Things we didn’t want to admit, even to ourselves. “This relationship is part of a pattern that’s been playing out in your life since the beginning.” Take a step back and look… She used me. Intentional or not, she used me to fill…
You Deserve It
It just feels like maybe it’ll be easier to come out of me this afternoon. I’m definitely in the right space. I’m going to sit here and sip my drink and when the cute little girl who’s sitting across the table from me leaves, I will hit my pen. Oh shit, here’s a kid Right in…
Third Places
I got the sign! I walked in and immediately felt comfortable. I found THE perfect nook tucked away in a corner. I ordered a hot buttered rum and the cute barista/server brought it to me. I can’t stop grinning. I mentioned that I was a first timer and only moved recently. He thought to tell…